We are alone, the world is not our home,
we breathe the air, we care,
We feel the pain, we cannot explain,
there are no words to be heard.
A child's face is lost in outer space,
his eyes are red, in our heads.
We move along, we are pretty strong,
we breathe the air, we care.
- MGMT
Was just listening to this song but had never really thought about the lyrics. I kind of feel like this song relates to me at the moment. My feelings feel very up and down at the moment and I have no idea why.
Had the worst night last night. It was final final fling which is the last unibar night at my uni, and since I'm leaving next year I was really looking forward to it and was planning on having a fun night. Yesterday afternoon I was feeling very tired though and was planning on napping but never got around to it. We went out to The Ox for cocktails (2 for 1!!) and I had 2 Sex on the Beach's. Usually I don't drink but their cocktails are amazing and usually if I have 1 or 2 cocktails I don't feel sick.
Had my cocktails, all was fine, then went out to the bottle-o to get a friend some goon (classy I know, this is what a uni budget does to us!). It starts pouring with rain so I get absolutely soaked, look like i've had a shower. This puts me in a bad mood.
We end up going to unibar at around 9.30 after lots of umming and ahhing from me. Get there and I start feeling really sick in the stomach and have a headache, also start feeling very paranoid, self conscious and almost depressed. Start tearing up so leave around 10.30. Get back to my room and just have a panic attack, it was awful and I have NO idea why I was so upset :( Threw up a few times and went to bed by 11.30. So today i had people constantly asking me "Where were you last night" bla bla bla so i just say i was sick and they all roll their eyes and go "oh whatever."
On brighter news I finish uni in 2 sleeps :D Very exciting because I love holidays and it means i'm closer to going to England.
Anyway, unfortunately nothing interesting for tonight. Hopefully will have better things to talk about once my holidays start!
Hxx
