We Care

We are alone, the world is not our home,

we breathe the air, we care,

We feel the pain, we cannot explain,

there are no words to be heard.

A child's face is lost in outer space,

his eyes are red, in our heads.

We move along, we are pretty strong,

we breathe the air, we care.

- MGMT

Was just listening to this song but had never really thought about the lyrics. I kind of feel like this song relates to me at the moment. My feelings feel very up and down at the moment and I have no idea why.

Had the worst night last night. It was final final fling which is the last unibar night at my uni, and since I'm leaving next year I was really looking forward to it and was planning on having a fun night. Yesterday afternoon I was feeling very tired though and was planning on napping but never got around to it. We went out to The Ox for cocktails (2 for 1!!) and I had 2 Sex on the Beach's. Usually I don't drink but their cocktails are amazing and usually if I have 1 or 2 cocktails I don't feel sick.

Had my cocktails, all was fine, then went out to the bottle-o to get a friend some goon (classy I know, this is what a uni budget does to us!). It starts pouring with rain so I get absolutely soaked, look like i've had a shower. This puts me in a bad mood.

We end up going to unibar at around 9.30 after lots of umming and ahhing from me. Get there and I start feeling really sick in the stomach and have a headache, also start feeling very paranoid, self conscious and almost depressed. Start tearing up so leave around 10.30. Get back to my room and just have a panic attack, it was awful and I have NO idea why I was so upset :( Threw up a few times and went to bed by 11.30. So today i had people constantly asking me "Where were you last night" bla bla bla so i just say i was sick and they all roll their eyes and go "oh whatever."

On brighter news I finish uni in 2 sleeps :D Very exciting because I love holidays and it means i'm closer to going to England.

Anyway, unfortunately nothing interesting for tonight. Hopefully will have better things to talk about once my holidays start!

Hxx

Grumpy!!

Just wrote out a long post, with pictures!!! and my internet decides to freeze.
So annoyed.

Hxx

If you can be good, you'll live forever. If you're bad, you'll die when you die.

Hello! Well, thanks to some encouragement from some lovely girls, I have decided to start a blog. To be perfectly honest I don't have much to write about. I don't live a glamourous life, I'm a student with no money so I don't own anything lovely to parade around, and I have a long term boyfriend so I have no boy gossip to talk about.

It's 1.21am on Tuesday morning and thanks to my 4pm nanna nap this afternoon I am very awake. I currently go to CSU in Bathurst but am leaving next year however currently i'm having second thoughts about my decision to leave. The main reason im leaving is 3 main reasons:
- I miss my boyfriend and family
- I want to go to uni in Sydney
- The travelling

So as the year comes to a close i'm starting to get a bit upset about leaving because of the friends i've made here, and i'm very scared that my social life will start lacking as soon as I leave since CSU is such a social place, and my friends at home are still stuck in their old ways.

So then i start thinking these thoughts that maybe i DO want to stay in Bathurst next year. But then i know that in a week i'll be wanting to leave and never come back. Oh the woes of an indecisive person!

Exam time is here. Today (well I suppose yesterday) I had business statistics. Not too bad, not fantastic. Wednesday - marketing, Friday - Macroeconomics and next monday - management. So stressed about the last two. Management isn't difficult but i'm doing the subject by distance so I don't know much because throughout the year i haven't been motivated at all!

Anyway, enough about uni work. I'm extremely excited for the next few weeks.
- Nov 17th: Finish uni for the year, pack up all my stuff from Bathurst and GO HOME!!
- Nov 19th: Going for my P's!
- Nov 20th: Going away to Terrigal with Michael for our 2 years.
- Nov 25th: Getting my hair dyed blonder
- Nov 26th: OFF TO ENGLAND!!!! So excited. I get back on the 30th of December and I just can't wait!!

I suppose I should try sleep. Congratulations for reading this. Hopefully i'll have more interesting things to post about later on.

Hxx